I HATE being relief staff
Sorry to anyone who does this job, it may be for you but not for me.
I can do it short term but long term NOPE
I like being a GL with my own room and staff and children who I get to know and plan for and bond with etc.
I like the paperwork and everything else that comes with being a GL.
I like the responsibility and it motivates me to be a better teacher.
I just do not know how to manage as next year work have left me on the perm relief rotation which means 4days/week I just fill in for absentees. Could be GLs could be assistants ... regardless I step in a room, clean, help manage the kids and thats it. Su*ks
I really feel like I have been given a demotion considering my background and experience.
I also feel like I have been persecuted for being open about my plans in the future and work are covering their bases based on what I have told them.
i.e. I said I would be doing a round of IVF in Jan .... this was after I lost my baby & they were planning the staff for the upcoming year.
Pretty despondent to be honest and hate feeling that way as I love doing what I do but these days I feel no joy whatsoever in it....and it does not help as adds to the despair I am already feeling due to my recent loss.
One staff member who I worked closely with for a while in a room (before they pulled me out replacing me with someone who had just been hired and was going to take over the room!!!!) said I should go speak to them again but I just don't feel I should. They know what I wanted and they aren't giving it to me. They have done all their staffing for next year so doubtful I can be accommodated now anyway.
poo
not happy
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